I am now 3 months postpartum and still breastfeeding currently. My last update was at 2 weeks post birth and I had originally planned to post on my progress every 2 weeks or so, but as you can see that hasn’t happened!!
At 2 weeks I was still struggling with breastfeeding with both painful, sore cracked nippples but also the constant seemingly never ending cluster feeding. I can now report that thankfully both of these are much better!
The hardest challenge with breastfeeding at the moment is the heat! I’m sure breastfeeding hormonally must make you warmer anyway but in this recent heat it has been unbearable. It is bad enough having to wear clothes even let alone sodding breast pads too!
Still leaking regularly which is quite fraustrating. It’s really embarrassing when your out and about to suddenly have 2 round wet patches appear on your chest! 😳🙈 I can’t remember when I was able to stop wearing pads with Hayden but I feel like it must have been by now! Surely! Although I know my memory timeline of events has been pretty poor post babies so maybe not!
I’m much more confident with breastfeeding in public this time too. With Hayden I did feel quite self conscience and used an extra large muslin to cover up when feeding. This time round though I’m not bothering to cover up, it’s such a hassle. And I no longer care who sees a bit of my boobs whilst I’m feeding.
Im already thinking that it will be quite difficult to wean Austin off breastfeeding in a few months time before I go back to work, as he is much more attached to the breast and not keen on having a bottle at all than Hayden. Hayden wasn’t too fussed as long as he was getting plenty of food!! So I think this will be a bit of a challenge in the future.
As expected I guess my mood has been quite up and down and generally a bit all over the place. I think it’s probably to do with a mixture hormones, tiredness and lots going on in life in general with holidays, and moving house plans etc
My scar has healed now, I did have some tiny bleeding and opening but no further stitches or anything were needed. I still sometimes forget that it’s there and get a bit of a shock when I look in the mirror. The scar itself is neat and not as bad as I expected but I really hate the fold of tummy that now hangs over it perpetually.
My stretchmarks have faded slightly and look less angry but still very visible. I must confess though that I haven’t been applying any bio oil or other moisturisering cream to them. There just isn’t the time with the 2 of them, and I’m still in the stage where showering in the morning is a win!
I have been doing slimming world and I have lost about 5 pounds so far (mind you I may have completely undone this by the time I’m home from holiday!) but I haven’t really noticed a discernible difference in my body. Although I can see some difference between the photos of then and now.
I don’t feel like I’m looking at my body when I look in the mirror, it feels like an imposter.
I know I shouldn’t complain about my body because it has given me my 2 beautiful boys. But it’s really hard to accept sometimes how much having children changes you both physically and mentally.
Am I confident in my body?
I feel quite confident when I’m in clothes or dressed. But I definitely don’t feel attractive in underwear or a bikini. I just think it’s going to take a bit more time to learn to love my body again. Not that I was super confident before babies.
I still I have a long way to go until I am back to the way I want physically. I read somewhere that it takes 9 months to grow a child and at least 9 months to recover from one!! Which makes sense to me!
I think I probably need to do some sort of toning exercise to help with my lack of abdominal tone in particular. But god knows when I can find the time or the inclination with 2 children under 2! So I may just have to settle for how things are for now.
How did you find the postpartum period?
Any tips on getting fit post section greatly appreciated?